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The silent shiny razor blade rest at my side

This is not the end but the beginning

I keep reminding myself

I have been lower, I have felt more pain before


Only to obliterate the world from my mind

A few moments of peace

Before everything comes crashing down

Disjointed memories of a bleeding heart

Drifting in and out of consciousness

How in God’s name has it come to this?


I tried to reach out

But only silence escaped my mind

Moments of enlightenment followed by weeks of depression

Every waking hour another knife twists




The tiny little razor blade still rest at my side

But its not going to see any action tonight

It is a night of silent contemplation

I put everything back in their proper place

This world can be a better place

I will fight on a little longer


The rusty old razor blade will always be there

My silent friends who lead me into darkness