Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia.

Where i was raised for 23-24 odd years or so of my life. A place where I called home, at first, just for the fact that I have lived here most of my life, and that my parents reside here.

That all changed, throughout this past holiday season however, I now call it home, because it is where i found my heart.

I first came home feeling distant,cold and empty, with every single shadow reminding me of the reasons why I chose to leave so easily in the first place. Every face, mocking me of my failures, insecurities and shortcomings.

Some might say that I carry around too much excess baggage. Yes,that, I am guilty of.
But for those who know my condition, it’s only natural for me to do so.

So I chose a dark path, to block out all those memories that dragged me down all this while. Avoiding all those that were connected to my life somehow. In hope, of moving forwards. But all it did was drag me further, drifting further away from society, pushing away the ones that really care.

Until one day it hit me, everything in this world, has a sense of balance. An equilibrium that you won’t notice until you step out of yourself for a minute, and take in your whole surroundings at once, feeling, NOT analyzing every single detail. And that every person you interact with, makes you react, think, and feel in a certain way. And now, I understand why.

Gravity.

The forces of gravity, that affects human beings, which have for thousands of years, being explained as, Astrology and the Zodiac signs. But I simply believe, it’s just gravity, the gravity that we radiate from ourselves.

Yes, Einstein might love to prove me wrong, as the Sun and Moons gravitational forces only directly affect substantial masses, like the earth and its seas. Were not substantial masses, no way near it, but, think about it, our feet still lands on the ground, and we do find ourselves attracted to others more than some, yes?

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While all the heavy partying, fun and games and sleepless nights that went on back home, what really mattered to me and inspired me was the company I was with, and that I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Anyways, what I really wanted to say is, thank you, to all those people that have affected my life in one way or another, and that this holiday season has made me really appreciate all of you, whether you realize it or not.

My two Sagittarian parents, who always taught me to shoot for the stars, while keeping my head low and always offering comfort when im distressed.
My brother, the Libra, who’s always weighing and analyzing everything we both do.
My best friends in Kuching;

Bert Steve, the indecisive Gemini, who gives me clear insights on my options and decisions in life.

Mark Foster, the cynical Aquarius, who is headstrong in his beliefs on realism, never fails to make me have a reality check whenever I think I’m drifting.

Shehu Waili, the eccentric Capricorn, who puts his faith in me, realising my Arian leadership qualities or such.

My best friends in KL,
Greg Bajien the Leo, and Clifton Dile, the Scorpio, while both being aggressive signs, make it easier and more familiar for me settling down in my new surroundings.

And to a certain Leo in Kuching, who taught me how to just let loose, have fun and separate my emotions from getting in my way.

Here’s a toast to all of you, and to those I failed to mention, thank you all the same, it really means a lot to me and I really appreciate it.

Loves,
Jeremy Adam
Aries.