Ramadhan...

Sorry, abit emo today, its that time of the year again, Ramadhan, the holy month of the Muslim calender. Feeling quite sad, reminiscing the good and bad times of the past. Everyone makes mistakes, i admit i made alot, but i dont regret, for if i hadnt made those mistakes, i wouldnt be who i am today.


Lots of love has been lost this year, in many different forms....


This is the first Ramadhan, and going to be the first Aidilfitri when i wont be able to taste my beloved late grandmothers cooking, and her very presence. I dont know what to say really, just trying not to burst into tears in the middle of the night. I guess i feel it the most among her grandchildren, cos im considerably the closest to her among the others thats around my age. I'll miss you always, Madam Cecelia Boult @ Saadiah Bonyamin. This Ramadhan is for you Nana.



This year has been a bad year for relationships as well, 90% of people that i know,who are/were in relationships,broke it off this year, including yours truly. 5% still holding on, the other 5% are married.

Oh yeah, the song above is by Indonesian band Naff - Hingga akhir waktu.

bloody emo. why cant local bands make stuff like this, try as they may, it just comes out....plastic.

to someone out there,whether youre reading this or not , i quote myself,

"Sometimes we have to close our eyes to see whats right infront of us"

signing off for now,
Jay.