Monday, April 4, 2011
Kolbenfaust Songs here!
Click Play and Listen to it as many time as you like, help us climb the underground charts and get noticed hehe. Feel free to download too, pretty soon were releasing proper quality recordings of these songs and more. So who knows, the live mp3 you downloaded might just become rare stuff someday!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
...................
The silent shiny razor blade rest at my side
This is not the end but the beginning
I keep reminding myself
I have been lower, I have felt more pain before
Only to obliterate the world from my mind
A few moments of peace
Before everything comes crashing down
Disjointed memories of a bleeding heart
Drifting in and out of consciousness
How in God’s name has it come to this?
I tried to reach out
But only silence escaped my mind
Moments of enlightenment followed by weeks of depression
Every waking hour another knife twists
The tiny little razor blade still rest at my side
But its not going to see any action tonight
It is a night of silent contemplation
I put everything back in their proper place
This world can be a better place
I will fight on a little longer
The rusty old razor blade will always be there
My silent friends who lead me into darkness
This is not the end but the beginning
I keep reminding myself
I have been lower, I have felt more pain before
Only to obliterate the world from my mind
A few moments of peace
Before everything comes crashing down
Disjointed memories of a bleeding heart
Drifting in and out of consciousness
How in God’s name has it come to this?
I tried to reach out
But only silence escaped my mind
Moments of enlightenment followed by weeks of depression
Every waking hour another knife twists
The tiny little razor blade still rest at my side
But its not going to see any action tonight
It is a night of silent contemplation
I put everything back in their proper place
This world can be a better place
I will fight on a little longer
The rusty old razor blade will always be there
My silent friends who lead me into darkness
Monday, April 19, 2010
10 storeys up...
the view from up here,
looks so tranquil, so inviting.
wonder how it feels like.
seeing your end from up above.
wonders how it feels like
before you touch the ground
so calm.....
so........
looks so tranquil, so inviting.
wonder how it feels like.
seeing your end from up above.
wonders how it feels like
before you touch the ground
so calm.....
so........
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Valentines...
In this darkness
there is no room for love
there is no room for anger or hate
no room for forgiveness
there is only clarity
to see in black and white
devoid of all that blinds
clarity
which gives a sign of light
where there is no room
In this darkness.
Happy Chinese New Year to all, and happy valentines, to those who give a damn.
there is no room for love
there is no room for anger or hate
no room for forgiveness
there is only clarity
to see in black and white
devoid of all that blinds
clarity
which gives a sign of light
where there is no room
In this darkness.
Happy Chinese New Year to all, and happy valentines, to those who give a damn.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia.
Where i was raised for 23-24 odd years or so of my life. A place where I called home, at first, just for the fact that I have lived here most of my life, and that my parents reside here.
That all changed, throughout this past holiday season however, I now call it home, because it is where i found my heart.
I first came home feeling distant,cold and empty, with every single shadow reminding me of the reasons why I chose to leave so easily in the first place. Every face, mocking me of my failures, insecurities and shortcomings.
Some might say that I carry around too much excess baggage. Yes,that, I am guilty of.
But for those who know my condition, it’s only natural for me to do so.
So I chose a dark path, to block out all those memories that dragged me down all this while. Avoiding all those that were connected to my life somehow. In hope, of moving forwards. But all it did was drag me further, drifting further away from society, pushing away the ones that really care.
Until one day it hit me, everything in this world, has a sense of balance. An equilibrium that you won’t notice until you step out of yourself for a minute, and take in your whole surroundings at once, feeling, NOT analyzing every single detail. And that every person you interact with, makes you react, think, and feel in a certain way. And now, I understand why.
Gravity.
The forces of gravity, that affects human beings, which have for thousands of years, being explained as, Astrology and the Zodiac signs. But I simply believe, it’s just gravity, the gravity that we radiate from ourselves.
Yes, Einstein might love to prove me wrong, as the Sun and Moons gravitational forces only directly affect substantial masses, like the earth and its seas. Were not substantial masses, no way near it, but, think about it, our feet still lands on the ground, and we do find ourselves attracted to others more than some, yes?
------------PART 2--------------
While all the heavy partying, fun and games and sleepless nights that went on back home, what really mattered to me and inspired me was the company I was with, and that I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
Anyways, what I really wanted to say is, thank you, to all those people that have affected my life in one way or another, and that this holiday season has made me really appreciate all of you, whether you realize it or not.
My two Sagittarian parents, who always taught me to shoot for the stars, while keeping my head low and always offering comfort when im distressed.
My brother, the Libra, who’s always weighing and analyzing everything we both do.
My best friends in Kuching;
Bert Steve, the indecisive Gemini, who gives me clear insights on my options and decisions in life.
Mark Foster, the cynical Aquarius, who is headstrong in his beliefs on realism, never fails to make me have a reality check whenever I think I’m drifting.
Shehu Waili, the eccentric Capricorn, who puts his faith in me, realising my Arian leadership qualities or such.
My best friends in KL,
Greg Bajien the Leo, and Clifton Dile, the Scorpio, while both being aggressive signs, make it easier and more familiar for me settling down in my new surroundings.
And to a certain Leo in Kuching, who taught me how to just let loose, have fun and separate my emotions from getting in my way.
Here’s a toast to all of you, and to those I failed to mention, thank you all the same, it really means a lot to me and I really appreciate it.
Loves,
Jeremy Adam
Aries.
That all changed, throughout this past holiday season however, I now call it home, because it is where i found my heart.
I first came home feeling distant,cold and empty, with every single shadow reminding me of the reasons why I chose to leave so easily in the first place. Every face, mocking me of my failures, insecurities and shortcomings.
Some might say that I carry around too much excess baggage. Yes,that, I am guilty of.
But for those who know my condition, it’s only natural for me to do so.
So I chose a dark path, to block out all those memories that dragged me down all this while. Avoiding all those that were connected to my life somehow. In hope, of moving forwards. But all it did was drag me further, drifting further away from society, pushing away the ones that really care.
Until one day it hit me, everything in this world, has a sense of balance. An equilibrium that you won’t notice until you step out of yourself for a minute, and take in your whole surroundings at once, feeling, NOT analyzing every single detail. And that every person you interact with, makes you react, think, and feel in a certain way. And now, I understand why.
Gravity.
The forces of gravity, that affects human beings, which have for thousands of years, being explained as, Astrology and the Zodiac signs. But I simply believe, it’s just gravity, the gravity that we radiate from ourselves.
Yes, Einstein might love to prove me wrong, as the Sun and Moons gravitational forces only directly affect substantial masses, like the earth and its seas. Were not substantial masses, no way near it, but, think about it, our feet still lands on the ground, and we do find ourselves attracted to others more than some, yes?
------------PART 2--------------
While all the heavy partying, fun and games and sleepless nights that went on back home, what really mattered to me and inspired me was the company I was with, and that I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
Anyways, what I really wanted to say is, thank you, to all those people that have affected my life in one way or another, and that this holiday season has made me really appreciate all of you, whether you realize it or not.
My two Sagittarian parents, who always taught me to shoot for the stars, while keeping my head low and always offering comfort when im distressed.
My brother, the Libra, who’s always weighing and analyzing everything we both do.
My best friends in Kuching;
Bert Steve, the indecisive Gemini, who gives me clear insights on my options and decisions in life.
Mark Foster, the cynical Aquarius, who is headstrong in his beliefs on realism, never fails to make me have a reality check whenever I think I’m drifting.
Shehu Waili, the eccentric Capricorn, who puts his faith in me, realising my Arian leadership qualities or such.
My best friends in KL,
Greg Bajien the Leo, and Clifton Dile, the Scorpio, while both being aggressive signs, make it easier and more familiar for me settling down in my new surroundings.
And to a certain Leo in Kuching, who taught me how to just let loose, have fun and separate my emotions from getting in my way.
Here’s a toast to all of you, and to those I failed to mention, thank you all the same, it really means a lot to me and I really appreciate it.
Loves,
Jeremy Adam
Aries.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
WHAT A YEAR ITS BEEN SO FAR!!!
WOW. i totally neglected my blog for a good year. and what a year its proven to been. alot of things have changed since my last entry. mostly personal issues, but all is well.
On a more interesting note..my favorite guitar, Korean made Ibanez RG7321 7 string, got stolen, along with my favorite Digitech Hardwire TL-2 Metal Distortion, somewhere between end of December to early January. The stuff was at my friend Gregs house at the time, we were back in Kuching for the holidays when someone broke into his place and took my stuff, along with his Ibanez Iceman IC400, Plasma TV, DVD player, most of his work clothes etc... and even finished the tuak in his fridge.
About a month later, we managed to track down the thief, and recover most of our stuff.
I work for the CIA, so the asshole chose the wrong guy to jack.
Actually, he was dumb enough to try sell both our guitars on mudah.com.my, Malaysia's equivalent to Ebay. Of course we grew suspicious as suddenly two guitars that fit the description of ours ended up posted on the site on the same day. So i posed as a potential buyer, sent an email, and after a few days, he called me regarding the items. A phone call, that would prove very regretful....to him.
Found out that he was actually a boyfriend to one of Gregs sisters friend, who has been to his place a couple of times and managed to steal one of their spare keys.
To cut a long story short, we met, he fled, we got our guitars back, cops found out that the car he drove was also stolen, and a little more digging led us to find that there were many more theft cases against him. And hes only 20 years old.
well, i guess i cant say more than that since its an ongoing investigation.
ANYWAY, playing in a death metal band right now, with Greg on lead guitars, Nick on bass, Jeremy Balong on drums, and Aziz vocals.
been much more fun than the previous radio-friendly-indie-pop-jazz wannabe band i played in where i felt disconnected from my true musical soul. yes im taking a stab at my previous band. deal with it guys.
currently finished recording guitar tracks for 2 songs.
So if you ever come across a band called "Kolbenfaust" in Klang Valley area gigs. do say hello
yes, the name is in German.
we like German.....and hot Latinas. :D
On a more interesting note..my favorite guitar, Korean made Ibanez RG7321 7 string, got stolen, along with my favorite Digitech Hardwire TL-2 Metal Distortion, somewhere between end of December to early January. The stuff was at my friend Gregs house at the time, we were back in Kuching for the holidays when someone broke into his place and took my stuff, along with his Ibanez Iceman IC400, Plasma TV, DVD player, most of his work clothes etc... and even finished the tuak in his fridge.
About a month later, we managed to track down the thief, and recover most of our stuff.
I work for the CIA, so the asshole chose the wrong guy to jack.
Actually, he was dumb enough to try sell both our guitars on mudah.com.my, Malaysia's equivalent to Ebay. Of course we grew suspicious as suddenly two guitars that fit the description of ours ended up posted on the site on the same day. So i posed as a potential buyer, sent an email, and after a few days, he called me regarding the items. A phone call, that would prove very regretful....to him.
Found out that he was actually a boyfriend to one of Gregs sisters friend, who has been to his place a couple of times and managed to steal one of their spare keys.
To cut a long story short, we met, he fled, we got our guitars back, cops found out that the car he drove was also stolen, and a little more digging led us to find that there were many more theft cases against him. And hes only 20 years old.
well, i guess i cant say more than that since its an ongoing investigation.
ANYWAY, playing in a death metal band right now, with Greg on lead guitars, Nick on bass, Jeremy Balong on drums, and Aziz vocals.
been much more fun than the previous radio-friendly-indie-pop-jazz wannabe band i played in where i felt disconnected from my true musical soul. yes im taking a stab at my previous band. deal with it guys.
currently finished recording guitar tracks for 2 songs.
So if you ever come across a band called "Kolbenfaust" in Klang Valley area gigs. do say hello
yes, the name is in German.
we like German.....and hot Latinas. :D
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